Smoking 31 years as a typical part of my daily routine. I don't like to get very stoned. But I just need to maintain my little buzz whenever possible. I need to find a job and had to quit smoking about a month ago. Now I am totally miserable. I am angry that I have to go through this. I resent that employers discriminate against it. It has never interfered with my performance at work. I resent that it is illegal and considered a "drug" like heroin and cocaine. I have insomnia, strange dreams, irritability, grouchiness, migraines, anxiety and depression. I have quit for extended periods in the past and these symptoms never go away without it. I thought I would actually feel better after a while but that has never happened even after many months. I have been on medication for anxiety and depression but no pharmaceutical has ever helped as much. I live in a state where medical use is not legal. I can't wait to find a job so I can't start again.
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