I was diagnosed with Lyme disease about 4 months ago, a little too late, and I got kicked out of physician assistant school, a career which I've been working towards since college. Coming from a medical field I thought people would be more open minded but instead I felt treated as lazy or crazy. I recently got kicked out of school because my grades were suffering and I have no idea what to do with my life. I'm 26 and as all my friends are getting married and starting to buy houses I find myself more alone than I've ever felt in my life. I don't know what to do with myself, I'm too depressed to look for a job, not to mention I have no idea what I'd want to do and I'm so sad because I got a taste on my rotations of doing a job that I love to do and think I can do. I had to move back in with my parents and I also find myself putting up walls with guys because I feel worthless, defeated, and lack the self-confidence I used to have. I've been crying so much lately, despite seeing a psychiatrist and getting treatment, mostly because I don't feel like I have any purpose in life anymore. I always thought that if I worked hard at school, all the personal stuff would fall into place, but now...On top of that I have loans from school which I have no idea how I'm going to pay considering I didn't get the degree...I feel like noone can help me and I'm just really sad and scared.
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