things seem to be smoothing over a little bit for now... I've made many promises to get them to this level, and I just need to keep them to make everything okay... It's going to be a VERY long and VERY hard process... But I believe that God will guide me down my path, and give me the strength to overcome it!!! I've read all of Genesis and am nearly done with the book of Exodus now. Sunday my wife has agreed to go to church with me, and I can't be more excited about it... Personally, seeking God with all my heart and soul has been working for me very well... I have told maybe 2 lies today... Small lies, but that is no excuse! I want to be better than that, and I am taking all the steps to the man I want to be!! Newton's third law: "For every action, there is an opposite and equal reaction," by applying this in my life I realized that, (1) if I want to get better I need to take action (2) the actions that I need to take must have positive reactions (3) the values of the church align with who I want to be (4) the reactions that I want will only come from actions that I put my entirety into, anything less will fail!!!