My kids have been absolutely awful today... my 4 year old is acting out... She hit her almost 2 year old brother today which is NOT like her... She's been crying and throwing temper tantrums, not listening to me... it's driving me nuts... I have no energy, in pain and having panic attacks about my stupid biopsy Monday. I know my daughter is acting out because daddy is out of town and she knows when i dont feel good but it's making things A LOT harder... I'm dealing with a lot of guilt and grief right now in regards to my health problems. Even though I have been "sick" since 14 (10 years this month...) But the lupus, Sjogrens & MCTD diagnosis are still fresh and confusing to me even though I always suspected Lupus and it was more than fibromyalgia... The auto-immune liver disease really caught me off guard but I am already prepared for the results and accepted it. I just needed to vent... sorry for rambling. I'm also really frustrated and upset with the lack of support from my husbands family... they knew i had the swine flu and never called to check on me to see if I was okay nothing... so I am dealing with hard feelings with them. My sister in law has MS (very mild ms she is very lucky) and they cater to her and when she had viral hepatitis a few months ago they did everything and everything for her but when I need help from them it's like pulling teeth... I even asked my husbands mom to come to the hospital with my hubby during my biopsy for support and she is giving the well I might have an appointment with the nursing home for grandpa we will see (even though she will have my car all week as a favor while hers is in the shop, maybe i should SEE if she can use my car huh?) We have brought up in the past how they favor my husbands brother, wife & their kids but it's like beating a dead horse... I thought for sure when they have seen how sick I have been since May they would be more supportive (I think when I just had the fibromyalgia diagnosis they didn't believe me or think it was serious enough) but still nothing has changed... And i'm incredibly hurt that I called my sister in law every single day for a month when she had viral hepatitis to check on her and again I get no calls from her... *sigh* okay done rambling I just needed to get this out.
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