I am starting to hate the night. I feel so much worse at night. All I have to do is get into bed and every little pain gets worse. My hands sell up and go numb, my shoulders start to throb, by hips ache if I put pressure on them, and now my neck is getting stiff. I think I am trying so hard to protect the parts that hurt that I am hurting the parts that don't.
To top it off, I am exhausted. But I can't stay comfortable for more than a couple of hours, then I am up. Sometimes I lay there trying to figure out what will be worse...not moving and letting the aches and pains continue to intensify or try to move and feel the agony of that horrible stiffness.
I am 36 and I have trouble getting down on the ground and then back up. I literally have to think about it in my head and try to come up with a method that won't make me wince, cry or get stuck.
I am sorry to complain, but it is 4:15 am, I am exhausted and all I want to do is sleep. I can't even remember energy.
I just want to believe that life might someday be normal again for me. A couple days without pain and one with energy would be a dream come true.
I am tired of feeling like a failure as a wife and woman. I am tired of disappointing myself.
Does anyone else have this night time issue? If so, have you found anything that helps?