Today was a beutiful day and I wanted so much to get outside and work in my garden. I was so tired I slept all day instead. I have been having a hard time with depression regarding how I feel. I missed two days of work last week. I wonder how long they will put up with me. I want to clean my house, but I am too tired. I should eat, but I am not hungry and then when I do I eat junk food. I am so tired of feeling bad. I am so tired of not leading a life of doing the things I want to do like gardening and keeping my house clean. I have been back on the methotrexate for almost two weeks now but when I first started back on it my body responded to it like an attack. I had a really bad flare. I think my body is settling down now, but I am exhausted.
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