I am so angry with everyone & everything, I can hardly stand to wake up in the morning. I was diagnosed w/ lupus in Nov. '06 & continue to decline in health & spirit. I have 6 young children (2 step) & a husband who works 12+ hours a day. I don't have time in my life for this shit! I look forward to spring & summer all year, now what? How can you take your kids to the beach, on canoe trips, or on the boat? How do you enjoy their baseball games? Dress like a tart - long sleeves & a hat that you wouldn't want to be caught dead in!!! I hate this so much I want to kill someone. Aside from the depression of it all, I can't even find time to take care of myself. My husband & kids are useless, they truly suck the life out of me. I love them BUT.......what about me? I have never felt so alone.
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