Well today was probably the worst in quite a while. I know I've had concentration problems and difficulty keeping up with demands of the job--but I'm doing better than I used to (now on Prednisone)--still never good enough. I have an extremely critical boss who nit picks everything. I have never been a perfectionist. He is definately a perfectionist. I left today behind on my charting and so frustrated. I'm doing the best I can. I know I have to keep up and it's killing me that my best just isn't good enough. I work in a hospital in emergency/urgent psychiatric care. It's feast or famine. I either am doing nothing or I'm slammed. I've been thinking about changing to a more administrative position and get out of the cooker. I'm so unhappy right now. I know I'm not "on my game". I'm not the person I used to be because of Lupus. I want to cry. I am crying.
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