It was two weeks ago today that the most wonderful woman I have every know passed away, my mother. She was only 46 years old and she died from lung cancer. In the past 5 years I have lost my nana, my uncle, and now my mom all to lung cancer. I just don't know how to deal. I try to be strong like my mom taught me to do, but every day just gets harder. Harder to get up, harder to go about the day, harder to breathe. If any one else has been through this and has any helpful ideas I would really like to hear them. I just miss her so much and I keep thinking of all of the things I will never be able to do with her again. I keep thinking of all of the things she won't be there for. My son starts school next year and I'm going to cry like a baby and she won't be there to console me. I won't be able to give her the over the hill birthday party I know she would have hated. I will never hear her laugh again, never see her face in front of me. It's just so hard to think she isn't going to be there anymore. How do I go on with normal life, when I feel like everything is falling apart?
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