I'm new to this whole thing. I always believed that i shouldn't show emotions or talk about feelings and such and that it made a person weak, but after loosing my mom my whole view on life has changed. She was always there for me and now she can't be. Everyday I think about her and all of the things she will miss. When I get married, when i have children, when i finally graduate college, holidays, birthday's, even just days lounging around. It's hard to think that I will not see her anymore. Everyone says that it will get easier, but it's not happening. It's been over a month since her funeral and everyday from when i wake up to when i go to bed it's all i can think about. I spent the last 6 months with her since her diagnosis of stage 4 non-small cell lung cancer, taking care of her. I talked to her everyday and spent as much time with her as i could, at least 3 to 4 days a week. I took her to her appointments and got her medication. I had to sit by and watch her go through chemo and radiation only to hear that nothing was working and in fact it made the cancer worse. It was so hard to see her fighting for her life and it just be taken away. I just dont know what to do.
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