I am a 37 yr old mother of 5, ages 21, 19, 17, 15, and 13. I am married. I am also recently diagnosed with stage IIIb/IV bronchial adenocarcinoma. It has also metastasized to my lymph nodes. I was told that I have 9 to 13 months without treatment, but up to maybe 3 to 5 yrs with it. The cancer is non operable, but I have started a dual platinum based chemo regimen, and I start radiation tomorrow. This is obviously a hard diagnosis to hear and try to deal with. My biggest problem right now is having no one I can really talk to. My kids are scared, my husband seems to be ignoring it or has already written me off. My parents and brother, sis, ect seem to be in denial mode. Everyone just says fight. I'm trying my best, but I hurt so bad, I can't sleep, I can't eat, I have to take so many meds a day. I would just like some people I can talk to where I don't have to smile and say "I'm fine." I don't feel fine. I make myself get up and do all that I have to. I do all the cooking, cleaning, shopping, running the kids around. I do those things, even though I really just feel like laying in bed. I just want someone who can relate.
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