so when I last posted, I mentioned that I'm going through withdrawal. Now I see how really addicted I am. I have intensified my efforts to get the attention of a guy at work and it's working. The withdrawal feelings have now been replaced with butterflies. How sick is that? And I can't seem to stop my mind fantasizing about this new prospect. At times I'm able to get to the healthy place in my head, the place that realizes these fantasies (and actions) are all about avoiding pain. But I'm in full-blown addiction mode and it's taking me over. I almost feel helpless and ready to just give in to it. I haven't yet figured out a strategy to bring me back to earth and reality. I've told myself that I should at least wait until the divorce is final before even entertaining another partner (I've been apart from my ex for over 5 months, but in my head I didn't really start to grieve until fairly recently). I have done a TON of work to date, but I still don't trust myself enough to enter another relationship (assuming my fantasies come true :-) I don't even trust myself to just date. That would probably be torture (in my head). On the other hand I hate to pass up a good prospect too, if the situation goes that way. Any suggestions on how to manage this?
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