Hey! I am new here and really confused. I was in a bad relationship for 11 yrs (married 7) and have been out of it for about 10 mths. Of course being the codependent/love addict I am, I jumped right into another relationship. Before I new it, I was living w/ this new guy, we're engaged, bought a house and me a brand new car. Now all of the sudden, I'm like how in the world did I make all of these huge steps w/out even realizing it. First off let me say my new guy is a truely wonderful guy. He is very caring, affectionate, successful, awesome to me and my son. I really couldn't ask for more from him. My ex was controlling, manipulative and addicted to sex chat lines (and who knows what other sexual things). The problem is that now I am finding reasons to try to run. I am used to high highs and low lows and with new it's always level w/ no drama. He is not what I am normally physically attracted to and that seems to be an issue for me. I usually love to be physical but just can't seem to get in the mood w/ him. Now I am having fantasies about the old (we were very passionate)and have kissed him 2x's in the last month. What is wrong with me??? I find this perfect guy who loves us unconditionally and I'm trying to run back to the old bad guy. I just can't figure out if this is b/c it's not right or I'm just running from intimacy. I all of the sudden crave independence and want to buy my own house and not worry about getting hurt or making a mistake....any advice would be welcomed.
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