Can someone help me to remember why i'm on this board and how to get back to the road to healthy. I have been removed from my addiction to him for a little over a year, 4 months ago, he slides right back in, i kept my guard up or so i thot, only meeting him in public places, coffee/conversation. well as we all know, the physical addiction took over and i found myself sleeping with him, not often, but still sleeping with him. sunday nite he stopped over before going to work, i felt sick, in fact got out of bed several times to hit the bathroom and be sick. my typical ignorance, even being sick, i went out to warm up his car before he leaves. i've been off of work the last 2 days with a case of horrible flu, do you think the man called once to see how i'm doing? i feel like a fool who's been here one too many times. why did i relapse why didnt i hold my guard up, why do i feel even more horrible and hurt by this man who truly doesnt care for me. any advice is welcome.
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