this guy proclaimed to be falling for me. we have known each other for a year and some odd months now. well a little less than a month ago hea really wanted to start going out but committment scares me so i told him i couldnt and i was sooo set on it. i enjoyed being around him and talking to him and being his friend but i couldnt do committment. well he said he was going to move on if i couldnt do committment and i encouraged him. i said dont miss out on other girls just because of me. well i then proceeded to tell him that i was going to go out and drink sometimes over the school year and he freaked. he is very anti drinking. well he got so mad that he stopped talking to me. and i was upset because he stopped talking to me and he wouldnt let me explain myself or anything. and he has still yet to talk to me. we go to the same school. we live 2 stories away from each other and we see each other all the time. well he wont look at me really or try and talk to me... he will talk to my friends but not me. well i facebooked him a long note trying to start a conversation. but he still has yet to message me back. and it hurts a lot less now but it still hurts inside to know that he wont talk to me. i mean it was my moms 6 yr anniversary a few weeks ago. of course it was a few days after we got into our fight and all i wanted was to talk to him. all i wanted was to hang out with him. i had no one here to comfort me and i couldnt... i couldnt hang out with the one person that i knew would have made me smile. it sucked! but i tried to stay positive and i am still trying. but it is a bit hard to sit here and not know what he is thinking or if we will ever be friends again... =[ but i dont think im in love with him but i have never tried so hard to fight for someones friendship than i have with his. i dont get it?? does anyone understand what the hell is going on with me?? lol.
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