So.... I love him so much. But I am so scared that it is becoming too much, he said he likes it because I am finally showing him how much I care, but its like too intense to me, like I am just so inlove and I don't care about.. all the other shit (sorry for the language) that I used to care for like having sex immediately. But i have known for a while he is thinking about joining the army. well yesterday he told me that he got his paper work to begin the process of joining. My stomach dropped, I am afraid I will lose contact with him when he leaves, and I am afraid... I know its probably dumb because we haven't even met yet but I just KNOW with out a doubt he is the one, he is amazing and he is everything i wanted, but at the same time he is a total opposite of me. The way he said it I am the "passion" and he is the "reason" lol I am very spur of the moment and he is very planned and calculated. Anyways, I know eventually we would get married we even talked about it because I asked him what happens to us when he leaves, and he was like "well it won't be long and eventually you will be living with me". I know this sounds dumb, but I just wanna marry him like I don't care about having the big wedding of my dreams I would be fine with a courthouse wedding with like cheap little rings (which I NEVER thought I would say lol but I just want to be with him. I am so scared..
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