Hello everyone, I hope that you are all doing well this weekend. Do any of you feel lonelier on a holiday like today, Father's Day??? My own father is not in my life and has not been for years. He is not well mentally and I choose not to have that kind of chaos in my life. Since many of us do not have many friends or none at all, and may not even have much family, some of us may feel lonelier on days where you are supposed to be with family and friends. I have other family that I am not close to, so the only people I deal with daily are my mom and son. While I am thankful for my mom and especially my son, I still feel lonely. I'm not comfortable speaking to my mom about certain things and my son is only 2; he is my child, not my BFF.
I knew that breaking up with my ex last year would cause me to feel more loneliness even though I was still lonely with him. I thought about calling him to see how he is doing, but he is still angry that I left him. I was just not willing to spend the rest of my life with a sociopath, so I had to walk away for my sanity, safety, and my own health. I think we all wish this feeling of loneliness did not exist, I know I do. No matter how many people you have in your life, you can still feel incredibly lonely. So every time I get lonelier and I want to contact my ex or someone else from my past, I remind myself of why I cut them out of my life to begin with. I remember that I deserve better and that I am worthy of being treated well, NOT being treated like trash in a landfill. I also remember that I have to be an example to my son. He is growing and developing and he does not need to see me with a revolving door of abusive bum losers. His safety and happiness are more important than my feelings!
So I just wanted to tell everyone to hang in there, it will get better eventually, but please remember to do what is best for you and your heart. Being miserable with someone to avoid being lonely or alone is just not worth it. I'll take being lonely over being in an unhealthy or dangerous situation with a POS any day of the week.
Happy Father's Day to all the amazing fathers out there!
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