I am 16 years old and have been pretty depressed for like four years now, i think more. I have been so much better lately, i don't hurt myself anymore and i don't think hardly as much about suicide. But I just never feel like anyone actually gets anything about me, and i feel like i'll never fit in anywhere becasue there's something about me that's not acceptable. I was raised very differently than most, raised on principles not normal within families. I'm scared of not having any friends even though i do becasue without my friends and my family i dont' think i'd be anything. I depend on the people around me way to much because i feel like its only the people around me that matter, but not me. No one in my life actually realizes how much i depend on them to just be there, there's ntohing about me actually that makes me happy. Does anyone else feel this way? I feel like i need to find something about me tthat is good besides what the poeple around me make me...i dont' go to parties anymore because thats when i feel completely hopeless and alone. I dont' feel like a highschooler and i'm so utterly confused.
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