HEY EVERYONE. I HAVE ALWAYS HAD TROUBLE WITH MAKING FRIENDS & KEEPING THEM. BECAUSE IT ALWAYS SEEMED LIKE I ENDED UP MEETING HORRIBLE PEOPLE WHO TOOK ADVANTAGE OF ME BECAUSE I WAS NICE. RECENTLY THIS YR. I HAD MY FIRST BF THAT I LOST MY VIRGINITY TO & LOST HIS TWIN BABIES IN A MISSCARRIAGE. HE LEFT ME FOR ANOTHER WOMEN. AND I DONT HAVE ANY FRIENDS. I LOVE BEING BY MYSELF BUT I JSUT FEEL ALONE ALL THE TIME. NOBODY TALKS TO ME OR ANYTHING. JUST FEEL EMPTY AFTER I LOST MY BABIES & EX. IT HURTS. IT'S LIKE I TRY TO MOVE ON FROM THAT & START OVER. I GO TO COLLEGE & CHURCH. BUT THAT'S IT. I DONT HAVE ANYONE TO TALK TO OTHER THAN MY MOM & DS PPL. NOBODY TRIES TO BE AROUND ME EVER. I JUST FEEL LIKE MAYBE I DONT BELONG ON EARTH. I HATE MY LIFE. BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I DONT HAVE FUN. ALL I DO IS SCHOOLWORK. THAT'S IT. I FEEL SOO EMPTY & ALONE. EVERYDAY ITS THE SAME THING AND TODAY I FOUND OUT FROM MY SISTER THAT SHE SAID THAT SHE THOUGHT THAT I LIKED BEING BY MYSELF. AND THAT PPL THINK THAT I AM PERFECT & THEY CAN'T RELATE TO ME BECAUSE THEY DONT KNOW ANY FLAW ABOUT ME. BUT THAT'S NOT TRUE. NO ON EVEN KNOWS THAT I DON'T HAVE ANY FRIENDS. I JUST AM AT THE POINT OF GIVING UP ON MY LIFE. I AM SICK OF BEING ALONE ALL THE TIME. WHY LIFE IF NOBODY CARES???? I CAN'T HAVE MY BABIES OR EX OR ANYONE. I JUST DON'T LIKE MYSELF. ANY SUGGESTIONS??/ BECAUSE I FEEL REALLY STUPID AND DEPRESSED & TIRED OF LIVING IF I ALWAYS HAVE TO BE BY MYSELF. =(
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