I have been through a killer year so its understandable that I have negative thoughts and also a separation from my husband and i just can't stop thinking negatively about people that have let me down. I am so lonely even though I have some new friends from church I can have coffee with. I find it hard living in my new flat on my own and whilst I can see that life can get better eventually, its the interim.Its the lonliness. Having a husband gives you independance from friends - so if they let you down, it doesn't matter so much cos you've got cmopany with your husband. I'm finding family's harsh words cut a lot deeper because I am so lonely and they have their families or partners. Being single again is strange. I don't like it at all. I had a bad time coming off medication before and have got less depressed over the years so I am afraid to go back on anti-depressants incase I will suffer a suicidal feelings when I want to try and come off them again. I feel so different from my family, they don't get me. I am a deep thinker and sensitive talking and they are harsh and superficial. huhhhhh if I could know how to be alone. To endure being alone? I can't stand being alone for more than 4 hours. My negative thoughts of others overwhelm me and build up. Anyone else feel like this?
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