Well, I believe I've reached an all time low in my loneliness, it almost seems like insanity. It is insanity really...It was lunchtime and as usual I was alone, though this time I thought I was brave enough to walk into the cafeteria and find some acqaintances, turns out I wasn't. My fear stopped me once again. This time, instead of pretending to have a headache to lay around in the nurse's office with an icepack on numbing my forehead, I somehow reaching a breaing point and hit an all time low. I started to talk to myself in public. Though you couldn't tell cause I had my phone against my ear as if I was talking to someone. I did that for almost an hour, the whole lunch period. Sometimes I mimiced the conversations I'd heard from arguing couples. Is that loneliness at it's worst? If it isn't i don't know what is.
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