I just feel so lonely and sad right now. I feel like nothing is ever going to be okay ever again. I'm 29 and have been married for 3 years. Ever since I was young I couldn't wait to get married. I thought it would be so comforting to have somebody there who truly loved me. It's not like I never had anybody who cared for me. My parents and family were always very loving, but I just thought being married was going to be different, but it's not at all how I thought it would be. Ever since I got married all I have been is miserable. In the three years we have been married my husband has lost three jobs, cheated on me with prostitutes, and has made me move to three different states and leave my family. His family hates me and his mother is always saying nasty things about me. He will always stick up for his mother before he defends me. I just don't think I can take it any more. He is currently unemployed and we are buried in debt. Our electricity was turned off this week and our cell phones are going to be turned off this weekend. I have a a job where I work 30 hours a week but that is not enough to pay all our bills. He just told me today that I need to start making more money. I don't know what to do. All I want to do is lock myself in a room and cry forever. I feel like I can't talk to my family about all these problems because I don't want them to feel sorry for me. I some times think what could I have done that was so bad to deserve all this. I know there are people much worse off than I am, but right now I just feel hopeless.
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