FYI: I am bipolar (II) and have anxiety issues. I feel like I will never meet someone who can deal with my baggage. I fake most of my social interactions in order to seem positive, when inside I just want to curl up in a ball. Others have told me I seem bubbly and happy and that they are jealous of my happiness, when truly, I am jealous of theirs. Perceptions: how often should I fake my feelings? How do I get that guy who's compassionate AND motivated to actually like ME?
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