I'm new to this group. How I really stumbled on it was a friend asked how having heart surgery changed my personality (which it did, my family all says I'm different). My husband left me for a 33 year old and when I finally got my new (old) house remodeled and we divorced so he could be with her he moved her in our house we had built of 22 years. At first I missed the house more than I missed him (even thru all the lies, abuse he put me thru and other relationships one of which he left me and the kids 12 yrs ago for another woman but I was talked into taking him back but the next 12 years he was an angry abusive person, did not support me when I had a stroke and heart surgery, could only visit me 20 mins. a night in the hospital). It was after my heart surgery (I had a quarter size hole...ASD, patched), that I realized I was going to find love in my life and to do that I needed to get divorced. I had left our church because it had always been a fight between us). I want to come back to the LDS religion and finding it hard because on dating sites all the LDS men I seem to hook up with want sex before marriage now to see if they are compatible that way before marrying again. That is against the LDS religion to do that. I don't want to share myself with everyone I date. I want them to love me for who I am first and not have it end up in promises broken again. I want to be sealed in the temple like my children have done and seem so happy (and I've missed out on). I changed all of my profile on the singles sites I am on now to include my new goal. It is hard for me to return to my church and I will have to pay the fiddler for the things I have done since leaving it but I am willing to pay the price. Do you think there is any hope of me finding my true (honest) love?
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