I haven't been on in awhile mainly due to continued depression. I am so slowly resolving the breakup last year and my divorce. I put a lot of pressure on myself to meet "the one" and I hate being alone. I can't get out of my head and relax mainly because my job isn't going well and I've been looking for a new one like crazy. I have too much time on my hands to think. My anxiety levels have gone thru the roof and had to resort to medication again which sucks. I'm feeling that roller coaster ride everybody talks about, one day up and one day down. It just feels like I'll never be relaxed, and at peace. I haven't been able to breath for months now. It's like holding my breath and for what? What am I waiting for? I keep running into my ex b/f and that is no fun either, I wish he would move. I have been making some progress with getting out but no enough. Now my goal is to get off the dating sites. I'm not seeing anybody I'm interested in and I keep meeting men who are just divorced and not looking but looking. Blah!
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