Has anyone ever wondered if finding a person who has been though the same pain from a previous failed marriage and have learned about themselves. Know what the want and what they don't. And really appriciate the attention, affection, and effort the other with simialr past would give to them. Talking to many of you I think we kind of have a connection (dont worry, I am no psycho....Freak maybe, but no psycho) that runs deeper than the normal, freshly married, never married, and not our spouses could understand. I wish we could all meet at a bar and do shots for each time inspiration and uplifting communication is passed. Some of you are hot and I know have not been frequently intimate (not just sex, I am talking close affectionate companion). I wonder if that is the type of ladie I would connect with now because i you think about it. We understand and would no want to inflict the pain we have suffered. We understand the red flags and warning signs and might just pounce sooner or harder to prevnt the inevidable, and to give the unconditional love with reciprication of the love and afection. I wonder just how strong or stronger a relationship with someone with a similar pas as ourslves would be. Maybe I am hopeless. Maybe I am horny (well yes I am), maybe I am heart boken with desire to fill that void. I just wonder
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