Ok, she and I have been together 7 years, I brought an infant son to the relationship from a previous marriage. She's my first and if asked, I'd say my one and only. I love this woman more than I've ever loved anyone in my life and I've told her that. For about 6.5 years now our sexual relationship has declined to about 1x per year. We go to therapy, (she has sexual issues due to sexual abuse when she was a child :( ) we spend 2 years on and off in shrinkdom. It's not about the sex although I'd like to have more. She owns her own business TYPE A PERSONALITY, I'm more of a "LALA" going where life takes me, who cares about money blah blah blah. Now I work with her and I feel like I battle an inanimate object (the business) every day. I'm lonely and considering leaving her although my love for her is so friggin intense it breaks my heart. I've looked at apartments, a new job etc. So, add it up, no sex, no attention (for me), basically a friendship it's turned into and we live together but my friend kisses me in the morning before she leaves. BUT she says she loves me... do I move on or do I stay? I've never experienced pain like this before. I don't know how to handle it and I don't know what to do. Where did she go?
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