So. Alot is going on. I havent been on this site long but wish to maybe become a "regular". But thats not the issue. I need help on a personal issue. I dont know what to do, say, feel, think. I am completely dumfounded. I have been with the same person for eh, about 2 years. Maybe a bit more. Everything was going great we had our rough spots, but always came to see that we loved one another. Well in December, we had the hugest fight. Ever. In my life. It was not pretty at all. Well, we didnt decide to break up, we decided to try anf fix it, like we always do, although we both knew it would take longer than usual. Everything was going good, but then i just got this vibe. i had it before that she was cheating on me. She wouldnt call, wouldnt text like she used to. Something, was different and i could feel it. But then i "complained" enough, and it went back to the way it used to be, but it just didnt FEEL right. But i subsided that bc i thought i knew she loved me. Well, i met a friend, ONLY a friend. The way we met, her bf was beating the crap out of her, and i politely put myself in the situation, stood for what i felt was right. Well, i am in an organization dealing with my anger too, and my doc told me, it would be best for me and my partner to just "take a break" form one another. What i was feeling was just paranoia. So, i confronted my partner about is, she agreed. Our friendship had disappeared. And i had my doubts, as well. So, everything is good for about 2 days. ...yeah. Then she starts accusing me of sleeping with my NEW found friend, who knew i was completely honest, and faithful. Well, drama, drama, drama. Blah, blah. My (ex) partner tried to then commit suicide, because of what she had heard, but wouldnt believe me. Thinking she had her own doubts... I dont know. Well she went to the hospital, she is fine, but i have not talked to her in a week. I dont exactly know how to approach this. Like i said i have been with her 2 years. We are broken up. And i have an interest in someone, but dont want to risk IF i have something with my (ex) partner. What do i say to my ex, to the current interest? What do i tell myself? I want to call her, but i am the reasoning she did all this. If i had not have asked for a friendship, this wouldnt have happened. But, do i call her, do i wait for her? Should i look forward to getting back with her? Should i not even bother? Should we just be friends? I am completely clueless. And i reach my hand out. Please tell me suggestions, even if they seem to hurt. I just want to know what should i do. I have the part of me who want to just dive for her, but then the part of me who thinks i should let her go, or just be friends. Honestly, I love her. But sometimes, love hurts.... Please help.
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