I AN MY GIRLFRIEND WERE HAVING SEXUAL PROBLEMS ACTUALLY IT WAS ME WITH THE PROBLEM.I AM A DIABETIC BEEN FOR 21YEARS,I HAVE ULCERCOLITIS, AND ENDOMETRIOSIS,AND NOW ON TOP I HAVE CARPULTUNNEL IN BOTH OF MY HANDS. WELL FOR ABOUT TWO YEARS OFF AND ON I WAS NOT ABLE TO BE INTAMATE WITH MY WIFE, I WOULD MAKE MYSELF JUST TO PLEASE HER.WELL, I STOP ALL TOGETHER BECAUSE OF PAINS I WAS HAVING.WE LOST OUR APT LAST YEAR IN JUNE AND HAD TO STAY IN A HOTEL FOR THREE MONTHS. WHEN WE MOVED HERE I HAD TO PAY ALMOST EVERYTHING RENT,CELL PHONE,LIGHTS, AND TRY TO FIND A WAY TO GET INTO STORAGE BECAUSE WE HAD LOST THE KEYS AND IT WAS GETTING COLDER. WELL, IT WAS ALOT OF THINGS GOING ON, I WROTE A LETTER ONE DAY JUST TO WRITE DOWN MY FEELINGS AND GET THEM OFF MY CHEST,I DID NOT GIVE IT TO HER BECAUSE IT WASNT FOR HE.SHE READ THE LETTER AND RETURN WROTE ME A LETTER THAT I GAVE BACK BECAUSE I WAS AFRAID WHAT IT MIGHT HAVE SAID, SO CLEANING UP ONE DAY I SEEN THE LETTER AND DECIDED TO READ IT,COME TO FIND OUT SHE HAD BEEN SLEEPING WITH HER EX HUSBAND THAT LIVES IN CHICAGO,ILL AMONG OTHER THINGS. I DROVE TO HER JOB TO ASK HER WHY DID SHE MOVE IN WITH IF SHE HAD BEEN CHEATING AND HER RESPONSE WAS WHY NOT MOVE IN WITH YOU. WHEN I FIRST MET LASHAWN IN CONVERSATION SHE WOULD OFTEN TELL ME IF SHE WAS TO EVER CHEAT ON ME SHE WOULD LEAVE ME FIRST, AS WELL AS SHE WOULD NEVER GO BACK TO A MAN, BECAUSE THAT IS NOT WHAT SHE WANTS.NOW SHE IS LIVING WITH HER BOSS AT HER HOUSE. I HAVE APOLOGIZED SEVERAL TIMES,TOOK HER ROSES,BALLONS,FOOD THAT I COOKED OR MADE AT WORK.YET STILL STILL CONSTANTLY BRINGS UP WHAT HAPPEN YEARS AGO BEFORE WE WERE REALLY SERIOUS ABOUT EACH OTHER.I ADMIT I DID SAY SOME MEAN,HATEFUL THINGS,OR ASKING HER TO SLEEP ON THE FLOOR,BUT I WAS JUST SO ANGRY. I HAVE ASKED HER TO FORGIVE ME,I STILL TELL THAT I LOVE HER, BUT SHE REPEATS WHAT I HAVE SAID TO HER,DONE TO HER.I HAVE NOT SPOKE WITH HER SINCE LAST THURSDAY. I HAVE BEEN TEXTING HER I LOVE YOU,MISS YOU,I AM SO SORRY,BUT NO RESPONSE.I FIND MYSELF DRINKING,CRYING EVERYDAY,OR WHEN I MISS HER TOO MUCH HERE IN THE HOUSE.I AM TRYING TO LET GO BUT IT IS SO HARD,WHEN YOU HAVE BEEN FAITHFUL TO THIS ONE PERSON SINCE WE GOT MARRIED IN 2001.