Okay my life is super complicated to say the least, for privacy sake my lady will be called Fred. Okay 7 years ago Fred literally showed up on my door step. She was looking for the person who had the pride sticker on their car ha! We became bestfriends. flash forward 3 years and we ended up together. Fred and I were a power couple, We had it all. When I looked into her eyes i could see the world. However, I had just had my heart ripped out and torn to pieces in front of my eyes and this made me afraid. VERY afraid. We have such an amazing connection and the thought of going through another heartbreak was terrifying. So my stupid and immature behaivor did just that, destroyed our relationship and broke her heart. In January of 2009 she decided that she couldnt handle me anymore and called it off. Here it is 2011 we still live together, sleep in the same bed, we share everything. We are basically a couple, without the title. and we dont have sex. Fred has told me in the past that sometimes when she looks at me its hard because she is reminded of all the pain she went through. I tell her all the time that she is beautiful, I try to make her know that she is special. She doesnt tell me anything.... ever. It does bother me sometimes. When im having a really down day I really wish that she would come home and just tell me I look good or something. When we first split up things were so bad that now I am afraid to try anything with her because everytime I get rejected it hurts. This relationship is confusing to me and I dont really know what to do. I love her deeply. she is my best friend. Am I doing the right thing by continuing to try and fix us? I am lost..
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