I have always questioned but been so scared about if I am bi or gay. I have been attracted to women since I was 16yrs old. I also like looking at guys especially Johnny Depp :) but I hate sex with men, it hurts and makes me so sick feeling. I seriously hate them naked, hate how they smell, kiss, lay on you. I really feel like throwing up. Is that normal? I have been married and divorced as fast as I was married. Hated being married to a man. I started kissing and makeing out with girls when I was in my teens. Did the same in my twenties. Women have soft lips and kiss wonderful and I like womens chests. I dream about being with women. I'm scared I don't really know why. More because I'm a mom and if I was gay like I think or feel, what would kids say to my son. How would my son take having a gay mom? Plus I'm shy and scared to have sex with a women and know and fear once I do there would be no turning back. Is there anyone else who has felt like this or became gay after having kids or in my situation? I'm scared, confused and hate being this way. I need to know what I am and live my life not wonder who I am, and being scared and not being true to myself. Can someone please give me some sort of advice or let me know they are on the same boat as me please?!
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