Hi all! I’m really stuck in my 7-year relationship and I don’t know who to talk about it.
We are healthy women, 30 years old. I used to date with men but no sex, just kissing and cuddling. Her ex was highschool gf and she told me they also didn’t do anything rather than a kiss. So it can be considered that we’re first love of each other.
I still remember we were very spontaneous and adventurous. We did everything on our first date. We always had a strong desire for each other. And she often surprised me in bed. Then we moved in. It’s been 5 years now and I can count how many times we had sex. She has become less interested in bed. I always make the first move, I try to do everything but she may take it but soon become lazy and passive. She says she has no interest. We argued a lot about it. I even booked a hotel room to getaway with her but we always end up with me hugging and massaging for her instead of... There were times that we were away from each other for 4 months. However om the day we meet, she still made me upset. It has reached my limit. Sometimes I cried at night because stucking in this relationship. She even has no interest in a French kiss. I love her very much but I can’t stand a relationship like this. I have talked to her for many times and she promised to change but I can’t see anything different. I don’t know what I should do. Is this normal?
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