We met here in fact. Never seen each other face to face. But her and I fell in love. We were thinking of ways to be together.. to meet.. to .. move to be with one another. The distance in the end drove us away from those dreams. Eventually we both realized neither one of us were ready to move to another country, even though our countries are right next to each other. I was willing to wait it out and see what happened. She wasn't. Now I struggle to let go of this dream so that I can be her friend. I don't want to lose her with my bitter attitude that I now have. I just miss what good friends we were before everything happened. Everyone I know says let go. Cut off from her completely. I don't want that. And from what she says, she doesn't either. We both want to be friends and yet I know I am beginning to lose her because I've been holding out some hope that some day we could be together. I discovered last night that I have two conflicting sides of me, I want to be just her friend in one way, but in yet another way I want to be her everything. While both sides of me exist, I can never be just her good friend. I need help. How do I let go of the dream?
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