I moved to california, like I had always wanted to, and now Im living with people that I love and realy care about. But I keep seeing them together, theyre so in love and so happy. Im not supposed to be lonely yet, Im supposed to be enjoying this brand new place and all the new opportunities. But I find myself thinking about how much I would love to have a good woman in my life right now, and how a relationship could be good for me in this brand new place and this new house and with all these new people. I dont understand why, all of the sudden, all of these emotions and thoughts and wants and needs are coming up in my mind and making themselves so prevalent in everything I am doing. Ugh. I feel so alone and I dont like it at all.
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