I dont know if anyone has been through this but...my ex and I hangout ocassionally. We do things, Im not a slut. I dont let every girl I see into my pants. Its just I feel inlove with her and I try to find anyway to be with her. I just dont understand how she can be intimate with me but tell me she's not ready for a girlfriend. It just seems like she only wants me around when she needs satisfaction. Its like Im her plaything and nothing more, but I cant just say enough is enough b/c i love her. I would give up all the breath in my body for her. She's the only one who gives me butterflies. When we kiss I swear there's fireworks. I cant go one night without dreaming of her. I dream and can feel her warmth, when I wake its heartbreaking b/c she isnt there. Im so sick of crying over her..but a life with her in any form is unliveable. So I guess Im asking for advice. Im at a loss either way. Deep down I know she may never choose me. Shes bi....I cant help but feel that a guy could give her so much than I can. With me her mom wont accept her. With me she'll encounter descrimination. I just wish she knew that with me...she wouldnt have to worry about someone not loving her b/c I do with every ounce of my heart and soul.
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