Im having family issues do to my sexuality. My parents dont accept the fact that im gay and living with my gf. so everytime I would call my mother to say hello she somehow manages to bring it up...she starts saying im lazy, im sinning, im a lier and much more. I would put with it bc shes my mom and I felt awful for making her cry. I feel like the bad daughter for makng mom and dad cry...As a result to this I would always end up crying and my gf would recive the end of it, trying to make me feel better. So yesterday I called my mom to say hello as I usually do and right of the bat she starts yelling at me and saying some really bad things about me and my gf, so i hung up. I just got tiered of taking her crap and trying defend myself and my relationship. So i decided i will no longer call my mom and only talk to my dad and sisters on the phone...So later that day one of my older sisters txed me asking if i could go over on sat to discuss the bday party we are having for my mom, i told her what happened and told her i didnt feel comfortable with going due to the fact that my mom and i had just fought. Her response "cut the bullshit." So my gf got my phone and started to defend me posing as myself. My sister didnt like what she said (even tho everything she said was true) and so know shes not talking to me anymore. I feel like im torn between my family and my sexuality. In my family no matter what mom and dad say even if their wrong, they are ALWAYS right...oh I forgot to mention, my mom was also pissed off bc i sent her some expensive flowers for mothers day instead of visiting her. I told her i had no money but i would visit when i did. All i wanted to do was do something special for her. i know she wouldve preferd me to be there but i didnt have money due to me buying the flowers...So know i dont know wether to feel guilty, ashamed or finally proud for standing up for myself (and my gf for doing so too.)Im afraid I have lost my family over this...I dont know what to do. I dont want to go back to the name calling, crying and feeling like im worthless for being the real me.
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