Im a little confused on what i should do....Ive been talking to this one girl for a while now, we say we are just friends, but its more then just a "friendship". We will call her Sam. Sam got out of a 4 year relationship when we started talking....shes 6 years older then me, our "friendship" so complicated. Sam gets jealous when she notices other girls calling me or texting me. I am also the same way but she takes it to far and pushes me away....Ever since I met this girl I didnt want to settle down with anyone at least not have a serious relationship with someone. I have always been the type of person that keeps things to her self and doesnt open up to people right away.but everything is so different with herI feel like a little girl that had butterflies every time she looks at me or kisses me. What she makes me feel Ive never felt with anyone else. I still feel that way after so many months.Sams previous relationship hurt her a lot and now I feel like its affecting what we have.I dont really know what to say we are, because she tells me shes not ready to get into another relationship and I do understand that I mean she was with this girl for four years and they were living together and all that..Im also 19 and shes mentioned a couple of times that Im to young and dont know what I want, She tells me im really mature for my age, but Sam still has an issue with the age difference.I dont care if she is older, I care about her a lot and to me age isnt a problem. But I just cant seem to have her see it my point of view. There is also this one girl we both know, who doesnt like me at all and has liked Sam since she met her and this girl is in a relationship with my friend and is living with my friend also. My friend knows I like Sam, and told her girlfriend that we are together when we really arent, And this girl keeps asking Sam, why Im telling people we are together when we arent. Sam tells her we are just FRIENDS. I guess it should bother me that Sam said that because we arent together but do everything a couple does. We have tried only being friends but its hard on both of us.we just stopped just being friends and went back to the way we were.Ive tried so hard just being FRIENDS with Sam, its been so difficult for me to just be friends.Ive told me self that if shes not ready for a relationship then we cant do the things we do.If you saw us always down the street youd think we are a couple..but we arent. Sam tells me shes knot sure how long its going to take her to be able to get in a relationship and doesnt want to waist my time, but also doesnt want to lose me to someone else. I dont want to lose her either.shes showed me that shes a real friend and helps me when every one else has turned there back on me.on little things shes showed me she does care about me. But I guess Im just lost with what we have going on? What Im trying to get at is there anyone that understands what Im going through and how you dealt with it?
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