Wow, I am 37 years old and no where near were I thought that I be persoally in life. I have had some heart breaking relationship expereinces in the past. I realize in reflection that I can be smothering in relationships and untrusting. Smothering, fearful of lose and it also corelates to me be untrusting. I unconsciencelessy am always looking over my shoulder in a relationship fearful of her leaving for someone better. This is due to a lack of self esteem. I have realized through some therapy which I was diagnosed with seperation anxiety and personal reading which I have self prescribed with abandonment recovery (a very powerful contributor to my broken relationships due to a very disfunctional upbringing within a an untrusting unloving household) that I have alot of work to do on myslef to really be relationship ready. I have suffered to much loss and heart ache in the past becuase of my negaitve upbringing. I think that I have done alot of work thus far to come to terms with these ailments and realize that yes I do have a problem. What is next? I am tired of being lonely and not feeling good about myself. I am successful in my career life but not my personal life. Anyone out there going through something similar?
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