I want so bad to go to a store (one of my two favorites and get as much stuff as I can and come home and add it all up! I want the rush of driving away! I want it so bad! How do I stop this voice screaming in my head! One good thing is that my car is in the shop and I can't get to a store unless I beg or buy a ride. It's been what seems like months since I've stolen anything and it is killing me. The longer I wait the more I want to get. Does anyone else feel like this? I used to go to my stores about every day before I quit drinking. It was a way of life for me. I feel so empty inside without filling myself up with new FREE things. It doesn't really matter what it is I always come up with a reason why I have to have it. The cost of the item doesn't matter either. Allthough I often get home and sit with a calculator and add up my days "haul'. I don't know how to get these thoughts out of my head. I've only been caught once and they let me go. I feel invincible in my favorite stores but logic says I'm not. PLease help with any comments, Thank you!
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