I have always thought of my self as a good person. I work hard love evan harder and try to go out of my way for people, evan when I don\'t know them. At the same time I am a bad person because I steal. I have a impuls dissorder and I shop lift. I hate my self for that but have never been caught so I have gotten quite good at it. I tell my self I won\'t do it and I try with all my heart but I keep fucking up. Does that make me a terrable person? I hope not because I hate my self enough and the thought of that kills my heart.
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