This is literally going to kill me. I don't see how I can go through this and neither should you guys. Tonight my husband and I went to his nephew's 7th birthday party at the sister's house and I was already dreading to go. So when we go into the house it's just the family and the next door neighbors (just the mom and son) they also have a daughter thats the same age as the niece who are both 17 years of age... pretty too. So I am nervous the whole time... BUT THEN who comes to the party? The girl next door... So all these thoughts are going through my head... "I know he likes her," " What the fuck... she is talking to him and she is looking at him." " He is looking back at her" " She's wearing short shorts... you can barely see her ass" SO ANYWAYS after the presents and cake and we are just sitting around... and we are alone, I ask him if he is ready to go. He says, not yet... and I say back to him.... yeah and I KNOW why you want to stay. And he says whatever and walks away. So I quietly take my purse and walk out. I then walk home which takes 45min or so... it's after one in the morning now and he still isn't back... where is he? All these thoughts are going through my head, " is she still there?" " Is he over at her house fucking her?" Is he turned on????" Any way I have already cut tonight and I want to do more... I can't do this... it will kill me.
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