This is my first time to the group. I have been reading all your old posts for the past two days. They have been very helpful and insightful. I need some guideness. I am lost. I feel sick to my stomach. I have two natural children (and I know how blessed I am everyday). They are now 8 and 6. Two years ago, after years of going back and forth on if we should have more, we decided to go for it. How hard could it be, right? Well, three months later we became pregnant and at 15 wks we lost him to trisomy 18. It has been the most devestating thing I have ever faced thus far. We tried again and become pregnant, three months later we lost her. Trisomoy 22. Then we tried for a year and couldn't get pregnant. Since I could four times, all the drs wrote me off as overreacting. We tried about four month of clomid...just made me pyscho. Then we moved to IVF. First BFN (6 eggs, 3 mature, 1 fertized into a 2 cell) 2nd IVF (10 eggs, 6 mature, 1 fetilized into a one cell). Although I am still in the two week wait (I have a 1% chance) it doesn't look good. I got a call the other day from the dr saying it doesn't look good for my eggs. OK here is my question, how do I decided what is right. I don't want these loss' to be the end of my story. When you become pregnant you see that child in your life. We moved to a bigger house. I have a painted baby's room. I didn't know it could end badly. I had been so blessed until this point. I know for those of you who don't have any how greety my story may sound. But I have a hole and it is huge. Help please. Anyone having to do donor eggs after having children already?
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