Well, it's a rainy old day here and I messed myself up again. I tried taking St. John's Wort and it reacted just like any anti-depressant has so far. Kept me wide awake, had to take 2 clonazepam just to doze, was full of heat and prickles. Why did I do that to myself? Then the past few days I've been getting a lot of gas. It's been over 2 months and I know my symptoms are slowly getting better but it seems soooooo slow. I miss my sleep. I don't like all the disrupted sleep and weird dreams and grumbling noises and gas pain and rib pain and trying to go to the bathroom so hard and all that. My biggest worry is that I'm not going to get any better than this. Boy, am I having a real feel sorry for me moment! I'd like to hear from people who have been at this point and are feeling better so I know there is hope. I pray everyday for everyone who is sick in the world. I wish there was no suffering. I think I'm a little sleep deprived and it's getting to me. I can't imagine I'm going back to work in a month. The doctor thinks it will be good for me. Oh well, if they don't mind the pharts, and burps and dozing on my desk, lol!
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