Hi everyone. I am new to this site. And I'm desperate for support. I am 26 years old with a beautiful 16 month old baby boy. I was diagnosed with IC over six months ago. I noticed something was wrong during my pregnancy also during my pregnancy I developed a severe chronic pain condition that has literally turned my life upside down. I have seen so many doctors about the pain and the UTIs. None of them could figure out what was wrong. After giving birth I couldn't urinate at all without help from a catheter. I then knew something was really wrong. I lost my insurance and was put on Medicaid and had to wait over four horrible months to see a Urologist only cause of my insurance. I finally went to the appt. and was diagnosed with IC. I currently take Utira-C and Elmiron for this. I was prescribed Gabapentin for the chronic pain. I also use Sprintec birth control which has my monthly all screwed up. I will be on my period for almost two weeks or longer. And my IC is unbearable when I have my monthly. I am so depressed over this. I can't do anything normal. I am in pain all the time, if we go somewhere we always have to stop so I can use the restroom. The pressure is horrible, I can't even get relief from going to the bathroom. I feel like I have to pee all the time. As I am writing this my keyboard is soaked in tears. I feel like a bad mom, I can't be sexually active, I lost my Medicaid insurance for being seventeen dollars over their income limit, I can't even hardly walk my son in a stroller or take him to the park like other moms. I cry all the time and feel like there is no hope at all. I have a wonderful boyfriend that allows me to be a stay at home mom. We are paying out of the pocket for the meds, which is breaking us in half. I don't put makeup on, get dressed or do anything outside anymore. I'm sure my boyfriend will eventually leave me cause I have absolutely nothing to offer him. I know some of you may not understand why I allow myself to feel this way. But I am always uncomfortable and it really saddens me. I don't know what to do from here. Really my only concern is for my precious baby who deserves to have a life like any little toddler should. I am absolutely broken. Thanks for listening, it really means the world to me to have someone listen. Because nobody close to me understands. I just want to be normal, and I want to know how everyone deals with this. I don't even feel like living sometimes. And yes I am on an anti-depressant which doesn't help me at all. Thanks again for listening.
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