I have been searching to find a group were others could understand where I was coming from then I saw the name of this one. Shattered dreams grabbed my attention that is how I feel and have felt since 1990. I can still remember the day my dreams were shattered. I have never felt so betrayed, thought I could never breathe normally again. This is still very hard to talk about but at that time my husband decided he wanted to have sex with my oldest daughter. fortunately she knew to let her teachers know but not me. I never thought he would do that but he did, I wasleft to handle all of the grief and guilt along with young sons that saw their father being taken away by NCIS. The man did not stop there I continued to remain with him and divorced but was led to believe the best thing to do by all the experts was to just remarry him for the boys. At first it seemed okay I had been so tired and things were easier. The one got sick and we did have more children-I am swallowed completely now with guilt because of this. It was easy now because he was gone all of the time on a war ship. So I did not have to deal with his controlling attitude. I was left to raise the children, like usual I was always there and remember the boys crying because it seemed like dad did not care. He did not act like he did even when he went to shore duty he acted like he had no time for the boys. Let alone me. I left him because of the guilt I felt and I knew I had MS and feared he would not stay around. He refused to divorce me and I had not money to do so at that time. It is hard to continue writng now I am trying to go on and have found a wonderful man to share my life with. It is the husband is still trying to control me and the games are really getting to me and he is trying to make my sons side with him and take lash out at me. I have spent the last few hours crying over this again. My dreams of a large family with children and lots of grandchildren is shattered. I will pull through this but I just need support as I stand strong against him. There is so much more to tell but it is needless need to make him a turned page in my life. Thanks for listening! Annie
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