I really feel like I am in need of some support and also some insight. I am so confused. I want terrilbly to make my marriage work but I do not know how to get the trust back and the constant worrying is killing me. My husband says he is trying very hard but does it matter what he thinks or is it supposed to be about what I think. My guess is probably both. He looks at himself and always says things like I used to know I was a good man and not I know that I am not. What do I say to that? Honestly sometimes I want to say you are right you are not but I love him and I chose to stay and now I have to try to be positive...right? I am still so angry and I feel like he is just over it and he expects me to be just over it. But I can't just be over it. He betrayed me I do not want anyone to think that I put all of the blame on him because I held him at arms length because I have been deceived before and I was waiting and expecting it from him and he played right into it. So really can I stay and make it a happy marriage again? Will the trust ever come back? I don't know if I can live feeling like this forever and feeling fear of trying to talk to him that I will drive him to do it again.
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