I have thought long and hard about attending a birthday celebration in a resort with my step daughter, family, friends and the ex will be there with our son. I had agreed to go but now i realize this is not good for me. I do not want to sit there and pretend everything he did is OK. i cannot sit there and see everyone else just accept him into the fold like it is OK like none of this ever happened like he did not abandon his wife and kid for another woman. I realize they are more like his family though they are mine in a sense too but i wonder if the tables were turned and i had been the one to cheat and abandon his family and yank them back and forth for months exploiting them if they would be so accepting to me. i doubt it. If they can accept what he did and sit around joking and laughing with him and hug him on his arrival why can't they see that i am just not up to this at this point. At the risk of causing a scene because i still am hostile, and not wanting to look at his face, i want to stay home. None of this is OK with me. Never will be. He is the one who turned the marriage into some tragic harlequin romance story. It just wouldn't be good for ME.
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