One more topic....we were in counseling when this whole mess happened..had been for a long time, and yes I was horribly unhappy, my hubby was recently diagnosed with ADHD and is now being seen for Aspergers which explains a hell of a lot...BUT, I was the one who said I didn't want to go to counseling anymore..why bother it wasn't helping anyway, I even told him if he was that unhappy and didn't want to be here, get out, go do whatever with whoever...HE was the one who said no I love you and the kids there isn't anywhere else I want to be, let's keep working on it...THEN he went into work and was telling them what a bitch I am, how he can never go anywhere or do anything etc.....how could he tell me one thing and go tell something else? I gave him the damn out.....whenever I would say to leave, he'd get mad...and we had no physical relationship in forever..I kept asking about it...I even said a few weeks before this all happened that I was afraid he'd cheat with someone who'd feel sorry for him and pat him on the head and he wouldn't have to deal with all the crap he'd caused...what did I get? "Oh no honey, I'd NEVER do that, I know I've broken alot of promises, but that is the ONE thing I would NEVER do to you" REALLY??!!
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