I have a problem with talking and engaging in sexual activity with women online and on the phone. I've done it since I was a young teenager and all of my adult life. It means nothing to me and has always been like a split life and something I just do. I am married to a woman whom I love more than anything on this earth. She continually finds out about it and has forgiven me time and time again. I am currently deployed in Iraq and she found out again and this time it won't be forgiven like all the other times (nor do I expect it too be). I get no enjoyment out of what I do and have never had any desire to meet any of these women or have any kind of relationship with them, physical or otherwise. This time my wife has turned to (for lack of a better term) giving me a taste of my own medicine and started to talk to men online with the possability of doing more. This kills me but obviously I can't get mad at her because it would be unfair to her and hypocritical. It hurts that she's doing it but even more now that i now have gotten just a small taste of what I have been doing to her for the past 9 years. This time i am getting help and talking about it with a chaplin while i am deployed to try and figure out why I do something I don't even enjoy at the risk of losing everything I care and love about in this world. If anyone has delt with this problem or knows anyone who has and has delt with it and moved on to a better life without this split lifestyle. your advice and support would be greatly appreciated.
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