Lets start by saying I have a drinking problem. The issue is that sometimes when I drink I drink to a point where I have no clue what I am doing or saying and remember nothing the next day. While this no longer will be a problem, its a precursor to my story. I understand my problem and have no intention of touching alcohol ever again as it has never brought anything good to my life in the first place.

I have been in a relationship for almost a year with a woman that I love very very much. I have no doubt that she is the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. This weekend I was blackout drunk with some of my friends and ended up sleeping with someone. My girlfriend came over to my place and saw it happening. I have no feelings for the person I was sleeping with and have never questioned my feelings for my girlfriend. I still dont. What happened was not by choice and has no reflection on the relationship I was in. Everything about the relationship was perfect, absolutely perfect except for the fact that my girlfriend was having a hard time accepting being in a same-sex relationship. That was hard on me as I am openly gay. I want more than anything for my girlfriend to forgive me and give me a chance to prove that what happened was not my choice and that it in no way reflects how I feel for her or about us. She is so hurt and says that she can never trust or forgive me. In my opinion trust and forgiveness are choices and not something that exists or does not. You have to make a choice to trust someone and you have to make a choice to forgive someone I just dont know what it would take to get her to understand that she says she cant trust me ever again and that she cant forgive me I can understand if she doesnt WANT to but I think she does WANT to but thinks she cant She CAN trust me. I have never questioned my feelings for and have never had feelings like I have for her for anyone else. I dont want to and even if she does not forgive me, I will continue to feel the way I do about her. I just feel that this is a moment in time where both of us have an opportunity to grow and learn. There is no guarantee that someone else would not hurt her this way, but there is a guarantee that I will not hurt her ever again. She means the world to me does anyone have any advice on how to mend things so that we can move past this?